Change - A good thing, or just a necessity?

I wonder, how is it, that we always just live with all the changes around us? How come, that our lives moves on but on the way, a lot of the people around us are getting left behind? I certainly wonder how it becomes so natural for each one of us, to take the different and necessary choices during each of our thoughts and actions. -

Right now, there's a lot going on around me. I have friends who has changed, and friends who aren't who they used to be. Friends who used to be my everything, and used to be people I would care enough about to open up myself, fully and doubtless. Now I'm started to see that while I have been gone from their lives for a year, they have changed, and so have I. It's the matter of disconnection, that has separated our personalities from each other. I don't blame them, because I am just as guilty as they are, in our falling-apart. In some cases I wish something could be said or done, but maybe the changes are for the best? -

For more than a year ago, I was the one controlling my life. With a few exceptions of course. But mostly, I planned my days, I decided who I wanted to be, I did what I wanted to do, I saw the people I cared about when I wanted to. Well, things have changed since then. -

I left for Florida with the knowledge of how my life would change after a year apart from everything I knew in Denmark. What I didn't think of, was how hard it would become, to separate again from my new life. I got used to speaking English everyday, I got used to walk into my room, which was only my room for a little less than a year. I got used to tell my class mates, how I had a mom, a dad, a little brother, a sister who lived in Germany and two cats. I got used to being able to go to the mall or to the beach or to the church or to the swimming pool with my friends and family. But now, what am I used to? -

I am back home, but because of the changes I don't know whether to feel like this is home anymore, or if I should think that this is just another journey. I have absolutely no desire in staying in Denmark for the rest of my life. Not that I would move to another country for good, but the year in Florida has made me realize, how great and enormous the world is. Even though we often talk about, how small it is, when we meet someone from our home country on vacations, or when we figure out that our nationalities has something in common with other really different ones. Yes, the world is small, but in a hypocritical way of thinking, it is huge and amazing too. I personally believe that it is here to be discovered and to be seen by the ones of us, who has the desire to try. Maybe I'm just a naive dreamer, but I have finally found out that my goal in life is to be enriched with the sight of different sides of this earth. -

Then again, I, myself has changed, and so have the people around me. But so has the World. And what else to expect? It can't just stand still, something has to happen all the time, otherwise what? What would the world actually be, if nobody changed, and everything kept being the same? That would be an extremely grey and lifeless world. My imagination doesn't even reach that far. And sometimes changes are for good, and will never be the same, but when that happens, it must be for a reason. Maybe we just grow apart, because our lives changes as we go. Maybe we directly choose to take a break with something or someone, because we can feel in our stomachs that this situation or person isn't doing us any good anymore, and we are allowed to think like that. That is exactly what shapes us, and what brings us forward. -

As an exchange student you have to change and you have to throw yourself into growing up, faster than ever. You force yourself to take choices that maybe isn't always what you, yourself want to do, but as a part of your growth, you have to fit your surroundings and please the people who are around you. Because they are the only ones you have, while being gone from what you are used to. They are the ones who have to learn how to understand you, and learn to accept your weirdness. You are weird to them. You are different, especially at first. With time you'll change into being like them, and be some sort of understood, but we all know that being by yourself in a different country, has got to be hard. Nobody around you will understand how you feel. Not your friends, either from home or from your new life, and not your family. If they are people who care about you, they will try, but they will never be able to understand how you feel. It is a change, and a difficult one. The people who are the ones, closest to understanding you, are other exchange students. Other people who are going through the same. They will make life so much easier, and by experience, they are the ones you will open up to, with no doubts. Most of the time, our host families are doing their very best to make us feel comfortable and interesting, and they are important for the experience as well. Personally, my host family was the best thing that happened to me during my exchange. They made my year valuable, and they gave me a home where I felt like I belonged. They are the reason that I feel enriched, and ready for the rest of the world. I can hardly imagine what it would be like, to end up with a family who didn't care. A family who wouldn't after time treat me like I was meant to come into their lives. I have so much gratitude in my heart, that it's never going to be described by words. I feel that the only way I can show anyone who has believed in me, while going through this change, is to get out and experience the world, and appreciate what I am receiving along the road. -

And it is hard, because some things, some maybe really valuable things for me, are being left behind as I go, but it isn't always something that I can go back and pick up. I can try, but I know that changes are for the good. -

Sometimes, bad changes happens. Changes, that we wish wouldn't. Those are the ones pulling us down, and they are the ones opening our eyes. They scream to us, and tell us that something isn't going as it should, but I don't believe that anything happens without the upbringing of something valuing to our lives. And maybe we have to look into our hearts, and into ourselves, because it is hard to see the goodness in bad happenings, but with an abstract, critical and realistic way of thinking, we will survive and get through the worst. -

In many ways I am a deep person, who always thinks a lot about the people I care about, and tries to help out where I can, and where I can tolerate it. I might not always show signs of an emotional way of thinking, and I might be silly and sometimes I might try too hard, to get attention from the people who I like being around. The people who can bring a warmth and a laughter to my soul, and the people who knows how to catch my interest. I am exactly like everyone else. Trying to belong in the group of people, surrounding me. By all the changes that happens for each one of us, we live, we migrate and we change. Change, change, change. -

The importance of taking choices during your life, shapes you into a new person, but not new for very long, because we change all the time. Opinions, styles, believes, personalities. Everything is necessary to create something good.