Spreading emptiness

Wow. This feeling feels like falling. Falling deeply and falling fast. I haven’t felt like this before. It feels like emptiness spreads widely inside my body. Like it stretches me out. It expands and makes my head spin. Round and around. Just spinning while being black, I still see nothing. I only imagine small particles streaming and surrounding me. They encircle my mind and restrict my thoughts. This makes me crazy! I can’t focus, can’t concentrate on the one thing. That one thing that I’ve loved so deeply. That soul which has been a part of me. It has been where only emptiness is to find now.

I don’t know how to feel. I can’t feel. I only feel like falling. And I feel this fall will never end.